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yesterday was my 36 wk check up! everything went well and we found out that carter seems to be prepared for the final descent. the midwife said that he is definitely head down and "really low". does that mean that i could "go" at any second?? i hope not. but it's pretty crazy that he's gonna be here soon (i use "soon" loosely here--both "soon" as in any second and "soon" as in 26 days). and i feel it--not in my lady area, but in my body in general--or in my heart or soul or something. i can just feel it that he'll be a part of our lives in the very near future.

anyway, i really hope that the midwife that i saw yesterday is on-call when we go into labor. she is definitely my favorite midwife i've seen, but my luck, she won't be. in reality, it doesn't make a difference which of the midwives are on-call, all that matters is that both kenny and hallie are there (and in that order). they're gonna be the ones with me through each contraction...i know right, lucky them, huh? :)

speaking of hallie, we're meeting with her again this sunday and i'm really excited to discuss things more! i'm really nervous about this whole "birthing experience"--in fact, i graced kenny with a mini breakdown last night via telephone around midnight. i figure i've been pretty good this whole pregnancy and if i have a bad day or hour here or there, it's okay (even though i'm fairly certain that my hormone levels are pretty stable at this point and that's not a valid excuse anymore).

i think it was just bothering me that he was gone for work and i'm nine months pregnant and feeling very unsure and not-very-confident about our son making his way out of my uterus and into this world at what feels like any moment. i let myself get all worked up over the thought of him coming at any second, even though i KNOW that first time moms typically deliver at 41 weeks and 1 day and i've still got lots of time based on those statistics, but still...geez...okay i need to move on from this...

the midwife also said that carter feels like he's gonna be an average-size baby...likely under eight pounds--probably between the mid-six and high-sevens. i guess that's encouraging--i'll be passing a honeydew through my vagina, as opposed to a watermelon...oh joy...