so i've been thinking...

maybe a baby boy wouldn't be so bad afterall.

let me back up.

reason #1:
last thursday i spent a day in the life of chenelle. it was awesome!! and exhausting, i must admit. chenelle basically gave me a crash course in babies. she taught me various ways to hold a baby (traditional, football, in front, baby baby), how to change a diaper, how to feed a baby a bottle and "solid" food, and how to put a baby down in his/her crib. she was able to do such things with the twin eight month old boys she nannies for every week day. the keyword in the previous sentence being "boys".

the boys were so cute and so darn reinforcing (obviously they're much older than a newborn so they were smiling and one of the boys is babbling)! it's like you walk in the room and they light up. you talk and they light up. you laugh and they light up. and these are babies that i've only met one other time for thirty minutes! maybe i'm just not used to being around babies or even typical children for that matter. who knows...

reason #2:
friday night, kenny and i were at babies r us and there was another eight month old boy in the portrait area and he was just in love with me! smiles and coos and tons of eye contact! i think im in love with baby boys.

reason #3:
lately all i've been hearing is that boys LOVE their mommys and that little girls really gravitate toward their daddys. i want my baby to LOVE me. hopefully our little one will. scratch that, i know s/he will.

reason #4:
this isn't really a reason, but on saturday, while we were waiting to get our flu shot at target, the man helping us fill out the paperwork predicted that the fetus in my belly was a boy. he seemed like an interesting fellow. he claimed that he's ALWAYS been right in predicting the sex of babies (with the exception of his own offspring). i only added this in the list because he is the FIRST person to say that i am having a BOY! everyone else i know declares baby z is a girl! hell, i think it's a girl. even right now, as im talking dreamily of having a baby boy, i just don't believe it is possible (at least not with this pregnancy). it's just not what we're having. i guess we'll know for sure soon enough. kenny says we can go to "meet the baby" and do the gender determination 3d scan as early as the end of next week! yay!